Stress Reaction

Abandonment is a tricky subject to tackle. Congratulations to you for the bravery! :) Self-examination can be very difficult at times. The changes can seem like prisons themselves and the rewards so far off as to seem illusory. (I'm thinking of how long-term a plan losing fifteen pounds is. ... It'll probably take me a year to do it healthily, and that's if I don't put any more on, and if I get my mobility back soon. .. oh, and best of all-- if I actually follow through with my plans and keep my target in sight!)

You do have friends here in the blog world. Some vocal, some silent. And your friends do care. :)

As for the colorwork socks-- they are a pattern I am making up as I go along. I will definitely post the charts when I am satisfied with the end result and am confident that I am done ripping and tweaking this particular pair. :) .. The socks go into the mail on May 1, so my sidebar should have a link by then. Thank you for your appreciation! :)

Also--I just love the picture of the moon!! Melancholy in a way, but gorgeous. Stunningly beautiful. :)

Hugs!

Yeah, that was one of the most brutal, heinous, mean - hearted crimes I've ever heard about. Sick. Disgusting.

Blog on.

M told me about that yesterday and I can't fathom the grief that father if feeling.

Hope you're feeling better after your Sat. a.m. session :o)

Friends are friends, no matter where you find them. Your friend from Sat. sounds great, and I know your friends around blogland are super ;)

It takes a lot of courage to re-examine things and make changes - I have a lot of respect for that.

The good thing about unresolved issues is that when you do resolve them you feel so much better. At least that's what I've heard. ;-)

the picture is perfect for this blog entry..
You know, perhaps it's time for the Einstein quote here: "Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results".
Please remember that you're far from alone in your 'insanity'. We all have those kinds of spots in our lives.

That is a horrific story, and I don't blame you for feeling shaken up by it. I am sorry to hear that it has come on top of some not-always-fun delving into your own past.

I also struggle with the tone I want to strike on my blog -- whether I want to let some of my real emotions show through. But Theresa's right, friends are friends wherever you find them, and I think there's something to be said for wearing your heart on your blog/sleeve.

I'm hoping for happier days for you soon!

Blog away! Personally, I look at it as a form of therapy, not to mention good practice for that book I've been threatening to write since high school.

As for that bastard in the story, he's the perfect reason to bring back drawing and quartering. Or public stoning. Or dragging him from the back of an F-150. Need I go on??

There are days I wish I could un-read the news. Enough said about that.

I think it's your blog, and you should feel free to do with it as you please. Sometimes we aren't happy, life doesn't always go smoothly, and our thoughts aren't always of pleasantries and knitting.

Hopefully you are getting some of the beautiful weather and sunshine, and that will help to balance out some of the darkness.

I share your ambivalence about how much to reveal but it seems to me that bloggers create a community that transcends borders and is more than the sum of it's parts if you know what I mean.

We all have our issues, abandonment is one I can personally relate to. Hurtful and horrible things happen in our lives present or past, and in the lives of others, it's heartbreaking. I keep a quote above my desk "Life is only 10% what happens to you and 90% how you react."

When I am feeling down I always remeber that.

I know what you mean about the blog. How much to reveal. I have one inhibitor that keeps me from being too revealing - my entire family - parents, grandmother, siblings, husband, family friends, etc. - all read my blog. I can't complain about my mother or my spouse or my sister. That helps to keep things light'ish on my blog.

Regarding the nausea you probably feel about the nearby crime - I can completely relate to that feeling. 1. I lived in Waco, TX when the Branch Davidian deal happened. 2. I lived in Wichita, KS when the BTK killer was found and brought to trial. I know how devastating those things can be to a community and the people living there because it becomes very personal and too near to your own life. Also there is more media coverage on it where you are than anywhere else. You're bombarded with the facts and horrible story over and over and over. I could go on and on.... but yes, I think it's totally normal to be very overwhelmed with grief for the family and the child considering how very very closeby they were/are to you.

I wish it would be so easy for us to have a Saturday for lunch or at the spa for girlfriend sessions. We're really not that far apart! :)

Friends are friends. I don't mind when people talk about Real Life in their blogs, even as I struggle with a reply that doesn't sound lame and patronizing. That said: Self-reflection Totally Sucks (and so do a lot of people). But I hear it gets better.

Wow, what an awful thing! I hadn't heard about that yet. It always frightens me when I read of the horrific things some people are capable of.
I can't be cheery on the blog when I am not feeling it and sometimes I just need to write about what is really happening in my life. I hope you are feeling better after your "session" and that it helped you out after the yucky part of actually doing it was over.

If you ware having a time of reflection and self-examination, why hide that? A blog can be a place to delve into these things, get feedback from your friends- and who knows- some of us may be haing the same issues and can learn from you and how you are helping yourself. No one's cherry and perky all the time. At least no one that I want to know!
BTW- I have been wearing the socks you knit me like there's no tomorrow. They get washed several times a week and still look perfect!

Gosh, how sad.

I hug hard you from over here :) In times of harsh reality, it might seem easier to hide but we are all here to share it - together we are MIGHTY MIGHTY!

I share your grief over the heinous ignorance of the crime in your community.