Jesus said it, and I choose to believe it. I have to believe it really. To think anything else is to go deeper into the blackness and the pain that already surrounds me. The one comfort, the one spark of light is knowing that my mother is indeed in the arms of her Savior. That she feels no more pain, or sadness, or loss. She is perfected in peace.
I carry her with me always. When I look in the mirror, it’s her body I see. I have her curly hair, her laugh, and her hands. It is through her that I learned to love the craft of those hands. She taught me to knit and to sew, to love reading and learning.
She took me to church and because she did, I have the assurance, in the midst of my pain, that I will spend eternity with her. This, above all else, is the greatest gift she has ever given me.
My heart is broken.
Comments (37)
Oh my! I'm so sorry for your loss! You and your family are in my thoughts.
Posted by Dorothee | March 27, 2007 2:06 PM
Posted on March 27, 2007 14:06
One of the saddest things a grrlwoman faces is the loss of her mother. My heart and prayers are with you.
Posted by margene | March 27, 2007 2:31 PM
Posted on March 27, 2007 14:31
I'm so sorry for your loss, I'm thinking of you and your family and sending hugs your way.
Posted by keri | March 27, 2007 4:11 PM
Posted on March 27, 2007 16:11
Oh Leah... I am so deeply sorry sorry for your loss! I pray that you will find comfort soon during such a sad time. My prayers are with you.
Posted by Marisol | March 27, 2007 5:17 PM
Posted on March 27, 2007 17:17
Oh Leah, I am so sorry. I know what you are going through and it is so hard. My mom's memorial service is this coming weekend. I envy you your belief. The tears are falling down my face and I am sending you hugs.
Posted by Lisa | March 27, 2007 8:07 PM
Posted on March 27, 2007 20:07
I'm so sorry Leah. Wishing you lots of strength for this difficult time.
Posted by Cybele | March 28, 2007 4:10 AM
Posted on March 28, 2007 04:10
I'm so very sorry. I will be praying for comfort, peace, and strength for you and your family. Thank you for sharing the lovely photo.
Posted by Beth | March 28, 2007 6:47 AM
Posted on March 28, 2007 06:47
Please accept my sympathies. Your post is a lovely tribute.
Posted by Theresa | March 28, 2007 8:54 AM
Posted on March 28, 2007 08:54
Oh I am so sorry Leah! Big hugs to you!
Posted by Karen | March 28, 2007 9:15 AM
Posted on March 28, 2007 09:15
Leah I feel soooo much for what you're going through right now. I saw how much it affected Mr. C when his mom died last summer and I know that you must be grieving deeply. You are all in my prayers my friend!
Posted by amanda | March 28, 2007 10:24 AM
Posted on March 28, 2007 10:24
Oh I am so sorry and sad. Please know that all my thoughts and prayers are all with you and your family.
Posted by Emily | March 28, 2007 10:50 AM
Posted on March 28, 2007 10:50
I'm so sorry for your loss! Losing one's mother must be one of the sadest things. You are in my thoughts.
Posted by carola | March 28, 2007 4:54 PM
Posted on March 28, 2007 16:54
Sweetie, I'm so sorry to hear this news. Consider yourself {{hugged}}. I'm am truly sorry.
Posted by Becky | March 28, 2007 5:57 PM
Posted on March 28, 2007 17:57
((gentle hugs))
what a gift of a mother... if you are like her, she was sensational indeed..
I will celebrate her life with you, and hold you close in my thoughts because you miss her so.
I agree with Margene, there is not much greater a loss than one's mother.
May your heart heal gently with each day.
Posted by Teyani | March 28, 2007 8:49 PM
Posted on March 28, 2007 20:49
Leah,
I am so very sorry for your loss. At times like this its very hard to know what to say. There are no words to ease your pain. There is the Lord Jesus who suffered for us so that we could be with Him in paradise. In the Sunday School book we are doing right now, the first chapter is on pain. Whether we use it or resist it. If we use it we can draw closer to the Lord. He wants us as close as possible to Him. I will pray for you this moring as I head off to do my devotions.
Posted by Marti | March 29, 2007 7:00 AM
Posted on March 29, 2007 07:00
Beautifully said.
You're in my prayers.
Posted by mia | March 29, 2007 7:01 AM
Posted on March 29, 2007 07:01
I'm so sad for your loss Leah. I pray for comfort for you and yours in this time of grief.
Posted by Debi | March 29, 2007 9:26 AM
Posted on March 29, 2007 09:26
OH my gosh I am so very, very sorry for your loss....I can not imagine what it feels like (and can't even try) for my mother is my best friend...you are in my thoughts and prayers and I do believe that she is in a better place....
Posted by Esther | March 29, 2007 3:50 PM
Posted on March 29, 2007 15:50
I am so sorry for your loss. I too know the feeling of losing a mother. I hope my mom was there to great yours even though they never knew one another in this place. My prayers are with you and your family. God Bless.
Posted by Karen | March 29, 2007 10:58 PM
Posted on March 29, 2007 22:58
Oh Leah, I'm so sorry. My thoughts are with you. I don't have the right words for this time - I just wish you and your family peace.
Posted by Terby | March 29, 2007 11:06 PM
Posted on March 29, 2007 23:06
Leah, I am so, so sorry. I'm very thankful for the assurance of eternity with our saved loved ones. I will pray for you and your family.
Posted by katie | March 30, 2007 8:29 AM
Posted on March 30, 2007 08:29
Dear Leah, while we grieve her loss with you, we rejoice, knowing that she is risen with our Savior. It is the only thing that can make sense of the senseless, soothe the pain that seems un-soothable, and dry the tears that seem to never end. It is well with her soul, and that is a sweet assurance .
We love you, our sister...and pray for you and your family.
Posted by Lynne | March 30, 2007 6:25 PM
Posted on March 30, 2007 18:25
oh leah. I'm so very, very sorry. I can only imagine what you are going through, but holding you in my prayers.
Posted by anna | April 1, 2007 5:43 AM
Posted on April 1, 2007 05:43
Leah, I'm so sorry. My mom died 9 years ago and it was a very hard time for me. I'll be thinking about you and hoping you can find peace.
Posted by Carole | April 2, 2007 10:47 AM
Posted on April 2, 2007 10:47
Leah,
I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my Mom a long time ago and it does hurt so much. There are no words that can give comfort but you are in my thoughts.
Posted by marnie | April 2, 2007 1:34 PM
Posted on April 2, 2007 13:34
I'm soo sorry. My prayers and thoughts are with you. I believe too.
Posted by Kimberly | April 3, 2007 12:27 AM
Posted on April 3, 2007 00:27
Leah, I am so sorry. Please accept my condolences and heartfelt wishes that your pain will ease and you will be able to remember your mother with only love and happiness.
Posted by Mandella | April 6, 2007 4:19 PM
Posted on April 6, 2007 16:19
Oh, Leah. I am so sorry. I will send healing thoughts your way.
Posted by Julia | April 7, 2007 2:33 PM
Posted on April 7, 2007 14:33
Leah, It is very hard to lose your loved ones and words don't seem to really comfort you at this time. Think about all the good times and memories you had with your Mom---they will never go away. Just know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
Posted by Elizabeth | April 8, 2007 2:35 PM
Posted on April 8, 2007 14:35
Oh, Leah - I'm so, so sorry for your loss. I know that your mother will "be with the Lord forever" and that we can't even imagine the wonders that she is seeing right now - our minds aren't big enough to know what God has in store - but being human, I am sorry that she isn't here with you right now. I am praying for you and your family!
Posted by Mary-Heather | April 12, 2007 7:07 PM
Posted on April 12, 2007 19:07
It's been a while since you posted, so I wanted to let you know I'm thinking of you. I hope you're hanging in there.
Posted by Renee | April 13, 2007 10:36 PM
Posted on April 13, 2007 22:36
Leah, I'm at a loss for words, because simply telling you how sorry I am for your loss doesn't seem like enough. I can't imagine how difficult it is to lose a parent, and you must be going through a very rough time right now. I do hope that the knowledge that we are all thinking of you and praying for you is some comfort. Please know that I am thinking of you. Take care.
Posted by Rachel | April 15, 2007 12:25 AM
Posted on April 15, 2007 00:25
Dear Leah, please accept my deepest sympathy on the loss of your mother. I still miss my mom terribly, although in many ways, I feel her near me all the time. God bless you.
Trish
Posted by My Merino Mantra | April 15, 2007 5:03 PM
Posted on April 15, 2007 17:03
Wow, Leah, you have my deepest sympathy on the loss of your mom. I will keep you in my thoughts.
Posted by Allison | April 19, 2007 10:25 AM
Posted on April 19, 2007 10:25
I am sorry to hear of your loss. I know it doesn't replace, but aren't you lucky to have such a beautiful picture of you and your mother.
Posted by Angie | April 20, 2007 4:44 PM
Posted on April 20, 2007 16:44
Dear Leah, I'm so so sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Posted by Iris | April 22, 2007 8:46 AM
Posted on April 22, 2007 08:46
Leah, how did I miss this? I don't even know if I'm hooked up with the right feed now. I hope that with time the grief is becoming more bearable. I'm so sorry for the loss of your mother. Take care and know that I'm thinking of you. Hugs and prayers for peace and comfort to you and your family. xoxoxox
Posted by Laura | April 27, 2007 11:08 AM
Posted on April 27, 2007 11:08